My body has been attacking me while I sleep.
As I said before I am a student, and this quarter is one of the busiest ones to date. So because of that I am a big ball of stress. And that stress is manifesting in my body while I am far off in the land of nod.
One of the things that I do when I am under pressure is grind my teeth. I know this because I wake up my jaw feels as though it has been wielded together. I also pick at the skin around my thumbs , the evidence being the bloody, deep gashes around my cuticles I find in the morning. Everything tenses up too when I wake. I am so tightly wound that my shoulders are nearly cranked up to my ears. My back is stiff and undoubtedly full of knots.
I don’t feel terribly refreshed when I wake. During the day I am able to remind myself to breath, or tell myself not to clench my jaw. But not at night! At night my body attacks me, when I am most vulnerable, and don’t have the consciousness to fight back.
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