Because I'm Worth It!

I’ve never been one to trust confidence. Rather I have never been one to trust it in myself. I like confidence in others. I (and this is very common I think for all humans) gravitate words those with an air of self-love. Those are often the most fun people to be around. Those are the kind of people one can really learn from.

However, in my self I always felt that if I believed something I did was good or worthwhile, than I was crossing over into arrogance. So to avoid that by swinging the other way… I spent an embarrassing amount of time in my life convinced that I was worthless. In fact I would say that many of my accomplishments have been fueled by the fact that I felt the need to prove to myself that I can do something… anything of substance.

Of course now I feel like I am finally figuring out the difference between confidence and arrogance. Confidence is a belief in ones capabilities; arrogance is the belief one is better than everyone else.

 I am starting to be okay with being confident. And beating yourself up is just self-destruction, not a way to avoid arrogance… I don’t wan to live in that world anymore.

I am still learning to trust confidence in myself, but I am getting better at it. I am getting better and asking what I want from life, and believing that I deserve it. I am getting better at believing that I have something of worth to say. It’s a slow process, but I’m getting there, and that, I think, is note worthy.