Some Days

There are days when I don’t like myself very much.

I don’t mean the low self esteem days (although I have those too).  I mean the days that I don’t like the choices I make.  Sometimes I take a good hard look at the person I am and it makes me angry, and disappointed, and I want to be somebody else.  The problem is you can’t take a vacation from you. And if you try to, it usually gets you into more trouble than it’s worth.

There are times when I truly wish I were better than I am. I wish that I were kinder to those around me. More grateful for the things that I have been given in my life. I also wish that I were more responsible, that I would make choices that are good for me, and that don’t hurt those around me.   

But I guess the thing about this wish list it I have the power to make it come true. I can choose to be better the aspects of my life that I find less than stellar.

As for the days, like today, that I am not even close to being all that I can be, well I guess, I just have to move forward, and take days like this as learning experiences.