For the most part I love being a person in transit. I love the idea of being in change. There is something very profound about evolution.
Of course there is a down side to this. If you in the midst of metamorphosis, it is hard to actually know who you are. And if you don’t know who you are, than you don’t know where you belong.
My feeling’s that I am an outsider are particularly acute lately. I’m not exactly sure what has brought it on. What I do know is that it's if I’m struggling to find my place in the world. I’m a little like Goldie Locks trying to discover the chair that is just right!
In all fairness, I do have a wonderful group of friends that I feel very connected to, and my family is loving and functional, at least relatively speaking. And believe me, I am incredibly grateful for that. With such great support it would seem that I would be extremely at home in my life.
I guess I’m still searching for my purpose. I’m not the first person embarking on that search, and I’m certain I won’t be the last. And who knows maybe by searching to hard, or trying to force meaning into our lives, we end up missing the big picture. We would all probably be happier if stopped trying to make ourselves fit in. It would be better if we all could give ourselves permission to be comfortable in our own skin.
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