Attracting the Good Stuff

Been thinking a lot about the law of attraction lately.  It always seemed like kind of a hippy dippy concept to me that really had no validity. But I’m sort of warming up to the idea of it these days.

This could be because my current circumstances are less than desirable. I did go through a spell recently where I worried, a lot (more so than usual) and it seems a great deal of what I worried about has indeed manifested, and not in my favor.

So I have decided its time for shift in perspective.  I want things to change in my life, and maybe I am the key. Maybe if I focus on all the wonderful people and things I have in my life, and will the positive changes I desire, then I will see a difference.

I don’t know if this will work. But its worth a shot. Whatever I am doing now is not working. So now I am making the effort to be mindful of all the things that I have to grateful for and to visualize the positive future I wish to have.

If nothing else it will elevate my mood, and that to me, is worth it. 

Plot Twist

I am in transition again.

I have been saying for a while that my life needed a plot twist, and boy did I get one.  It has been over a year since I have graduated with my MFA and I have found myself in the sad but common role of cliché.  I have spent the past year taking part time teaching jobs where I can get them, and doing my best to stay afloat, and keep my bills paid.

What I have not been doing is living my truth, and pushing myself to live up to my potential. But it didn’t matter because I was surviving, and surviving was better than nothing.

And that’s when the plot twist happens. Through a series of unfortunate events that I will not go into here, I currently find myself jobless. This is not where I wanted to be. It is scary and uncomfortable, and my future is so uncertain that it is enough to make my head spin.

But if I am completely honest, I needed this wake up call. It’s made me really look at the choices I’ve been making, and it has lead me to really evaluate who I am.  I needed this to push me to grow. At the end of the day I am an artist after all, and isn’t this the way an artists story suppose to sound? My dream is to make a living in a way that is creative and fulfilling to my soul. I am not sure how exactly or what it will look like, but I know now is the best time to figure it out. Now is the time to find a way to do what I was designed to do whatever that is. If that means I have sell some coffee or shoes to get to where I am destine to be then so be it.

I would be lying if I said I was not scared about my future, but I know that people believe in me, so I am going to believe too. And honestly what’s life without a few curve balls, what’s a story without a few plot twists?

As my dear friend Evan put it “Jennafer this is just a chapter of your story, not the whole book” And he is absolutely right.